I've been meaning to write since the day I last posted but something kept on holding me back. (haba ng sentence shet compund complex de charot) HAHA. Pero ito na. Hindi ko na papaabutin ng 3 months bago ako mag-post ulit. I had to write today and I've been waiting for this very moment just to be able to write again. I was eating late lunch kanina sa Mcdo, all alone and by the window. Then, hindi ko na napigilan. The next thing I know, I was crying. Actually, nung moment pa lang na sinabi ni papa na busog pa siya at hindi niya ako masasabayang kumain, gusto ko na agad umiyak, but of course, kailangan ko pigilan 'yun. Masama loob ko since the day after my birthday and hirap na hirap na ako ipunin lahat 'yun ngayon. Siguro, I just wanted to spend time with him. Kasi believe it or not, no matter how broken our family is right now, basta 'pag kasama ko si papa, feel ko secured ako. Walang pwedeng magpa-iyak o manakit sa'kin. It's just been like that mula noon pa kasi siya ang laging nandyan for me. We were never emotionally close but you'll know he did everything he could para maging tatay sa'kin. Anyway, hindi ko kasi alam kung paano ko ilalabas lahat 'to. Before I started writing this, I was talking to mama. At nung moment na 'yun, I knew I badly needed a hug from her. Pero how? Just how? And as I write this, I am listening to lolo and lola's theme song. It's the song I always listen to each time my life falls apart, at very effective kasi I was able to let go of the tears na matagal ko nang pinipigil. So, how do I start this? From the last post.
My last post was about the requirements I had to do for the last semester. At hindi pa yun yung huling hagupit ah. Haha anyway. The teaching demo was okay. Erica and I did great. Maganda ang comment sa'min ni prof despite the fact na nanginginig daw ako the whole time. Sabi ni Bunsay sobrang kita yung kamay ko na nanginginig. Hahaha. Then, yung report sa Logic, ewan ko ba dun. HAHAHA. Halos sinalo ni Carla lahat pero in the end I still got 7.5/10. Not bad but not that good hahaha. And yung sa Field Study HAHAHA forever kong tatawanan. All the struggles I have to go through para lang matapos yun. Including the final requirements. I just---- okay. Hahaha. Yung Adversaria na ginawa ko in just one night. Epic pa din. Bakat kung bakat e. Tapos hinalungkat ko pa yung ibang reflection papers ko nung high school para sa art interpretations. Instant mami! =))
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