Yes!

To-Do List:

• get my shit together
• fix my life
• be a better person
• always be happy

Haha srsly tho. I really need to learn how to control my depression. I mean, just because I'm hurting, doesn't mean the people around me are not. Everyone has their own struggles in life. If you couldn't be of help, then don't anymore add up to their burdens. It's the least you can do.

Recently, I've had several breakdowns -both emotional and mental. I wasn't able to control myself. I kept on tweeting about how much I wanted to end my life. Well, I really wanted to, but I just couldn't. Several people whom I thought would never care about me, were actually there for me. It made me really thankful as they were able to remind me of my purpose in life. However, it also made me want to isolate myself more. I don't want to be a bother anymore. I don't want people to worry about me that's why I'm here; hopelessly saving myself from drowning in severe depression.

Yes, it is already severe. Every aspect of my life is failing and I just don't seem to be handling it very well. I can't juggle all of these, really. Luckily, the optimistic side of me is still alive. Happiness is a choice after all. I just have to decide that I am not depressed. I just have to focus on the positive side of life no matter how much negativity is trying to consume me. I just have to look at the brighter side, ALL THE TIME. I know, I can do this.